Following the Autumn tradition of worn out leaves falling from the branches to the forest floor below.... of course I procrastinate and do it a few weeks later. I have followed that same spiral decent. Not a one way trip however; zig zagging from the right and the wrong. Knowing the right way is up
segway- as I walk forward I have to watch the ground so I do not trip. I must STOP I must take a few moments throughout my day and LOOK UP. He is there watching me, waiting on me to ask HIM for help. cont...Knowing the right way is up, I must stop when the gravitational pull is so strong and look UP to HIM. HE will deliver me out of the pull of sin and redirect me. It really IS simple; all I have to do it LOOK UP and ASK for HIM.
when I don't look up
when I don't put HIM first
when I allow the spiral to pull me down... zig zagging all the way between desire and His will... I get stuck.
Stuck in the Muck
The Muck is deep and grabs hold of my feet. It does allow me to move, but will not release me from its grasp. It has perserverance I do not have on my own. The patient muck likes me there... it covers my feet. I try to get away, it splashes up on my legs... the more I try to get out the muck flys throgh the air and lands on my body. I wipe it away but my hands get covered. I can not shake it off. The more I shake the more falls all over me. It is on my hands, my arms, it splashes on my face. The muck doesn't taste bad... this is surprising. I can not get away from it, maybe I should just enjoy it. The next thing I know I am rolling around like a swine after a good rain storm. The muck has covered me. I am thorougly enjoying the cool sensation all over me like an embrace. It is the WRONG embrace!
How did I get here?
Simple answer..
I stopped looking up EVERY DAY.
Long answer...
I listened to the wrong music
I listened to the wrong voice
I looked to the wrong inspiration
I looked to the wrong things to fill me
I wanted to hold the wrong things
I should have held the Bible more
I wanted to taste the sweet sugar of sin
I need to taste the nourishment of whole foods and the Word.
I did not honor my priorites or my Lord
I am so blessed with the ability to wake up, reflect and learn from my choices.
I was complacent in my success of the past year. I got cocky and woke up in the muck.
Dear God please smack me across the face and shake me when I stray from you. Throw the Bible upon my head, or across my hands. Pull me from the muck, shake me off, shower me in your holy waters and guide the way you have planned for me.
I have so many challenges ahead of me...
I will look up to you for guidence. I will stop and listen. Please show me what your will is for me. I will be patient for your answer, and will not be frustrated when your timing is before mine.
Blessed is the person who has Jesus in heart.
Blessed is the person who has a friend.
Blessed is the person who has potential to grow and wisdom to listen to HIM
Blessed is the person who is not complacent and wants to grow to be a better version of themselves.
Blessed is the person who is willing to do the hard work with HIM.
Blessed is the person who forgives themselves for playing in the muck, for GOD has already forgiven him.
Blessed is the person who has one other person willing to go through all the splashing in the muck to enjoy bathing in the word of the Lord together, doing the hard work together and becoming better versions of themselved togehter.
Blessed I am.12I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want.
13I can do everything through him who gives me strength. Philippians 4:12-13 (NIV)
