Would the real Maria Dea stand up?

Who am I?
What do I want?
Why do I want what I want?
How far am I willing to go to get what I want?
but

What DO I want?
but
Who AM I?

So today was Biker Sunday. I really would love to ride a Harley. I once wanted to be a "Biker Bitch," yes that is what I called it. I wanted a teal Harley- I had it all picked out. I wanted the black leather and all.
But today, in this time period, I am a large woman trapped in the clothing style offered by the plus sized stores and conservative in nature.
Inside is some girl, maybe woman, who wants to get out.
Is she respectable and polished and shops at Talbots?
Is she organic, shopping at 2nd hand stores and wearing patchouli?
Is she that biker bitch with tats and leather?

I presume I may be somewhere between now and the biker bitch?
Or possibly a combination of all of the above.

Hmmm

God- please show me who I am, what I want and where I should go. I do know I am your child who is loved, I know I want to please you and I know I should continue to follow your path. I wonder what that looks like, who I will be with, and where it will take me.

I wonder will I know the real Maria Dea when she stands up?